Time to go, she simply states, nothing more
The man, confused, looks into her eyes
She’s cute, petite, nothing like the lore
But once they eyes lock, he quickly realizes
Why she is here and what this visit is for.
Her face is soft, he always imagined someone dark
But here she sits beside him, almost beguiling
Perched on the bar stool, like a little lark.
So he takes one last drink for the road
Realizing that the time has come, it’s his mark.
And so it goes day after dreadful day
She finds them, as their time has come
To help them cross over and on their way.
There’s never alot of discussion
Afterall, there isn’t much left to say
One look in her eyes and the answer comes
And their bodies will turn back to clay.
This is her job, assigned to her long ago
She’s never known anything more
Never known friend, love or foe
She simply finds those that are chosen
Those assigned to her to cushion the blow
Until the day she found him, lying there
Under the clear starry night sky
Praying to the God they both shared
Asking for nothing for himself
Only for those for which he cared
He prayed for their happiness and heart
But She knew he wouldn’t be spared
She watched him all day and night
Searching for why God chose him
But she couldn’t find the reason why
She saw in him only pure love and benevolence
Not a selfish thought in sight
Though she knew it wasn’t her job to question
And she knew what she had to do
The time had come for the cession
Of his body and for him to descend
Into another world beyond possession
She did not want to take him away
For she knew what that would do
To a world already so dark and gray
But she had received her instructions
And she knew what she had to say
But for just a few more moments longer
She would allow him to stay
So she followed him around his tiny world
Just lingering back a few steps behind
Smiling as she watched him twirl
When he thought no one was watching
And feeling a ting of jealousy within
When he noticed the pretty girls
She had never had such a feeling
In fact no feelings at all
She was just here to serve her duty
She never really had any other dealings
With those she carried across
She wasn’t there for their healing
She was just there for thing only
That’s the way it had always been
But lately she had been feeling lonely
And wanted to do something more
Something she could touch, something homely
She watched as a butterfly landed
On his shoulder, feeling so safe
He didn’t flinch, was still in the moment
Giving it time to rest, and catch its breath
Gathering its strength so as to not be stranded
Weak and tired, while he was its safety net.
She was amazed and touched by his grace
And the tenderness of his soul made her eyes wet
With tears of happiness, gratitude and renewed faith
In a world she had deemed as doomed long ago.
When she looked at his smile, she saw no hate
Only pure, unequivocal love meshed with a kindness
So genuine, so knew she had found her mate.
But how could she love something so human
And look him in those clear blue eyes
When doing so would dim his soul so lumin
And his beauty would be nevermore.
She was just like the fictional man of tin
She wanted a heart, to love, to touch, to be
But that was not to be her fate
HE long ago gave her this destiny
She was the angel HE sent down to lead
Those he selected to just cross over
She was to question not; just do the deed.
What stirred inside her was brand new
She had never questioned this before
But as she watched him bath in the dew
She questioned it all without apology
She wanted to look into his eyes of dark blue
And hold his hand inside hers
She wanted to kiss his lips of rosy pink
And twirl with him in the blades of grass
Though these she knew she should not to think
She wanted to question it all over again
Why GOD, why choose him, me or anyone
To cross the threshold and walk to death
Into the dark, when they aren’t even done
With all they can offer and achieve
Without so much as a warning their times come?
Why subject me to such a life so desolate
Without love, or touch or even conversation
I’ve never felt love; why I’ve never felt even hate.
The only beauty I see is from afar
And only happiness I’ve gotten as of late
Is only through observation, never actually felt.
I want to touch his skin, even go on a date
Do all the things I’ve seen others do ’round here
All the adventures they get to have
And share Without any consequential fear
I want to shed the tears, dance in the grass
Soak up the dew, stare at the sky so clear
Basking In a sweetly unknowing naivety
I want to experience the laughter
Bellowing from the depths of my belly
And share a silly inside joke
I want a man to say I love you daily
And to kiss me on the porch stoop
Before taking off to his job.
I want to be part of a friend group
And make jokes for them to laugh at
Then comfort them with a bowl of soup
When feeling under the weather
I want a connection with a lover
That starts and ends each day with me
I want to run to him for cover
When life gets to be too much
To share adventures with and discover
That YOU made him just for me to hold
All the parts of my body and heart
God, I am telling you now, for the first time,
I want not just anyone or anything
I want him God to be with me
Give him to me God, I beg of you
I’ve asked for nothing til today
This is something I deserve
There was no rhyme, no reason
Just a plain chaotic outburst
But GOD stood still, silent and subdued
Just letting HIS child vent her feelings
Calmly, gently, not angered, not crude
HE took his angels hand in HIS
And gently, careful not to be rude
God reminded his broken little angel
Of all this beautiful life she had viewed
And how she felt it all, touched it all, had it all
Though maybe not in the way she had wanted
But still she had to all, every time HE called
For her to come down and help him bring
Another Chosen one home safely and forestalled
I love you my sweet child, so I shared it
I shared it all with you every day
The good, the bad, the tears, the grit
I shared the beauty of this world
While also protecting you from its pits
For in that world, love always comes with a price
But love through ME, comes without a cost
MY love is the only one so pure
That you will never have a fear of lost
You may not hold his hand; but MINE
Is the hand that can hold the most.
My silly little angel, you sound like them
Chasing sunsets, butterflies and waterfalls
Constantly measuring, comparing, wanting him
Always questioning the cut, clarity and shine
Without even appreciating the gem
I give you the rainbows to love each color
But you only worry about the dim of the storms
Instead of relishing in the winter white
You are too busy craving the warm
Do you not see what I have shown you
You must view all sides to see the whole form.
This is the gift I have given you day after day
You have seen the beauty and ugly
Yet here you stand before me to state
That this is not enough to fulfill thee
Therefore my decision should sway?
Like a scolded child, she stood in silence
And though she felt some shame
Her heart still clung in defiance
To the hope HIS mind would change
And that HE would grant compliance
To her wishes, even if just for today.
I know I am being ungrateful father
Acting like some awful spoiled child
But his smile makes me a mauther
And I just want him to be mine
I don’t mean to be such a bother
But I just had to ask
Lessons Learned From The Rainbow 