This Is Me

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I used to dream about being Wonder Woman. I wore my costume everyday.

I chased the horizon, running barefoot through the cotton fields my pawpaw tended.

I snuggled in the tractor tires and basked in the sun on hot summer days.

I set out on my bike each day and created my own world.

I wondered down turn rows, exploring the woods, hunting for hidden treasures without fear.

This is me.

I love the strange and different and they love me.

I seek adventures more than I do love.

I love a few but I love fiercely.

Others’ happiness makes me happy.

I love poetry, nature, and lazy Sunday mornings.

I love Eleanor’s smile and her nuzzling my neck.

I’ve lost many; and always emotionally prepare myself to lose everyone I love.

This is me.

I have more guilt than pride; but regret nothing.

I’m tired; but restless; happy but not content.

I don’t yet know who I am supposed to be; but love who I am right now.

I don’t fear dying; but want to grow old for Eleanor.

I saved myself.

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As a poor kid growing up in the Mississippi Delta, there was never alot of hope or many opportunities. But, for 30 minutes, if I could sit in front of my tv, I could go anywhere and be anything through the magic of Reading Rainbow. That show brought so much light into some really dark days; and I carried the lessons I learned through the storytelling of Lavar Burton for all my life. Now that I am a grandmother, I've come to realize the significance of Reading Rainbow and the role it played in making me the woman I am today. I feel that the cruelty in this world has hardened my heart against the hope and valorous spirit that I once had. I am hoping that by revisiting Reading Rainbow; and the stories covered over its expansive reign on Public Access Television, I will regain the love for life and craving for adventure that the little girl growing up on Hunter Road had over 40 years ago.

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